I'm writing about my after-thoughts, post yesterday's incident.
Though I may sounded light about him falling into the pond, but there are emotions stirring in my heart, in my head since yesterday.
When he was sobbing, I soothed and calmed him by promising him one big ice cream from the 7 eleven nearby. His first respond was, "Do you want to have some?"
My son is a giving boy. I am proud, but it aches my heart too. I worry he will be taken advantage of. I am scared his heart will get broken. It's a cruel world out there. I may be living in a cave for some time now but I do know stuff. *grin*
Sigh.. but lets keep the positive vibes.
So when we went back up, I bathed him while checking for injuries. It has been weeks since he could clean himself, but yesterday I just couldn't let him do it on his own. I lathered him with soap, each stroke tender and with love. We spoke quietly about what happened. I reiterated about safety, without sounding too much like he had done something wrong.
And then we went out for dinner. Lasagna. He had wanted to try cos Garfield likes it but I always thought 190 baht was too pricey. Yesterday, I didn't care about the price or that it's too laden with cheese. If Lasagna is what he wanted, Lasagna is what he got.
When papah came home, he marveled at his bravery. He thought it was chivalrous of him to help a girl.
I felt compelled to write all these down.
Because I look at Gooly differently now. With so much awe. If the same thing happened to adults, we probably won't be bothered to pick up the wallet. Cos we don't care that our friend is upset. And we don't care cos it's just a wallet. It's silly to fall into a pool of water for a stupid wallet.
While rewinding the whole scene, I have asked many times, "Why?"to him and to myself. Why are kids so .... I don't even know what is the word. We, adults are just not like them. We don't think like them. We are so selfish, so scared of everything, so self-centered.
I am sure he wasn't trying to be brave. Does he know what is chivalrous? I don't think so. It just seem natural to help a friend in need. That's it. As simple as that. No big deal.
Someone once said, "He is bound for something big." That's a grand compliment. I had laughed at the comment. Now at 12.30am, watching him sleep, I laugh again, cos heck, he has done something big already!
Ya, he didn't save a living thing. But his action... his chivalry is equivalent to something as heroic. At least, to me.
On this day, right at this moment, Gooly, I want to tell the whole world that I am proud of you. Nothing else matters.. you have a good heart.
You have left your 'markings' in mahmee's and papah's hearts so profoundly, and I am sure, Ada's as well.
Way to go, son.